Wandering Mind

Motivation is gone. I have a list a mile long of what I need to do before I move…Don’t want to do any of it. I’m preparing to heavily caffeinate and then head to the yoga studio to TRY to start integrating the second series into my practice. I started yesterday by thinking I would do the whole series (with modifications) before my 9:30 class. Yeah, right. I made it about half way through before I had to quit and I didn’t even have time to do the finishing poses. I have learned (god bless the internet) that it is often common to do a few of the second series poses after the primary until you can do about half and then start the second series after Navasana until you can do all of it and THEN you can alternate days between primary and second series (and then you start thinking about third…). I forgot how hard it was when I started doing yoga. I’m so used to strengthening poses I know and understand, while occasionally having a new one that is harder for me or that I have less of an understanding. But to have a whole series of poses that I don’t really know again is daunting. Is your yoga practice supposed to mirror your life??? Maybe it will help me develop the strength, patience, and fortitude I need to transfer my life to NP.

Blessed are the coffee growers…Coffee’s done. So is there a coffee saint? Or maybe the Hindu god(ess) of coffee? I want that statue.

And due to lack of funds I have taken on a couple more furniture projects… they should be fun projects but I really have enough to do as it is. But it’s looking more and more like I may not be starting in NP until July 5 (moving up on July 1). I think if I find any housing at this point probably won’t open until the first of July. And there’s always the joy of the unemployment check. Currently have the potential for a 3 bedroom house about 7 miles from NP. Other than costing $500 more a month than I want to spend, it sounds lovely. We’ll see if the raise comes through… still no word. I would like to go see it ASAP but I keep playing phone tag with the owner so I’m preparing to hop in the Gas Guzzler at a moments notice to cruise out there. I think the 3 bedroom, two bath thing will be nice. That way I can actually have a guest room and thus, I can actually have guests. Did I mention that it’s sitting on about an acre so lots or room for Oz.

Classes over the weekend we’re fantabulous. Saturday and Sunday both had around 10 students in each class and the energy was really great both days. One of the students Sunday morning thought it would be nice to open all the windows because it was too warm the week before… After I had been trying to warm the room up for two hours before class. So I closed the windows, and we had wonderfully vigorous sun salutations and warmed the room right up. It was a very mixed level class which was nice. It allowed some of the level one students a chance to see people flowing and gave them a nice understanding of the direction there practice can go. FOCUS however, was a problem for some. I did a seated meditation before class and obviously we did Savasana at the end of class and I don’t understand why people look around, pick their nails, play with there hair… Saturday was a blast. It’s classes like that that drive you through your own practice and all the less than stellar class we lead. Knowing that occasionally everyone’s energy flows together and is strong and lifting. There were times I remember moving around the room but I don’t remember my feet touching the floor. I did about a 10/12 minute seated meditation before the class and I felt like it really helped everyone arrive. I know it helped me out a lot.

Alright, I’m going to go practice now. I’ll try to keep writing. It keeps me focused and less depressed. Kind of like seeing a shrink, but cheaper.

One more cup…