Wandering Mind

You probably think this pose is about you…

Practice was very Brechtian. I was constantly pulling myself out of my practice to observe, rethink, and adjust. I practiced in the dance studio again but today I left the mirrors uncovered and made some observations about my practice. Some were ego based, some were alignment based, all were distracting but necessary. I even took a video of my Surya B. I usually try to allow the processes of the mind to happen in the subconscious but today they were right there in front. I accepted the vanities of looking in the mirror because I wanted to see my alignment but I couldn’t separate my opinions so they came along too. And happily, I’m not as fat as I thought I was (but more judgmental than I would prefer)… the big thing I learned today is that I’ve been coddling my hamstrings. In forward folds I had no idea how much I was rounding my back and releasing the stretch from the hamstrings. There was a lot of “Stop Sagging” thoughts going on too. It was entertaining that’s for sure, But not the normal, peaceful practice. I won’t leave the mirrors open again for a while but since I don’t have a teacher right now I’ll have to observe myself. And, Yes, I do internal observations and work to really feel my alignment, but sometimes I need an outside observer, even if it is myself.

The drive to learn, expand and grow. Lose this and we become stagnant, become complacent and Life ceases to exist.