Wandering Mind

There is something to be said for just making it to the mat. Surya A's last night before bed, Just standing this morning. It's not ideal but I guess I shouldn't have ideals when it comes to my practice. While trying to observe my limitations without focusing on them I ended up focusing on them the whole time. My biggest limitation was the wandering mind going every which way but quiet. But I had the mat under my feet and that's more than many other days.

I had a pinched nerve in my back about a week and a half ago that was causing some major back spasms. Ended up at the chiropractor for the first time ever last Monday. I must say being able to sleep through the night was a glorious thing. I went again on Wednesday and Friday and once we worked through the pinched nerve we moved on to the tight lower back, tight hips, and the left knee. I'm may try to keep going once a week for a while to keep working through some of this stuff. I figure as long as the insurance is helping to pay for it I may as well. I was most surprised about the improvements to my knee. I haven't been able to even look at someone in lotus without my knee hurting but since the visit on Friday I can actually get into half lotus. I think my fear of messing the knee up worse is holding me back, but I'll still take my time coming back to it. It's just nice to work that hip again.

Work is N.U.T.S. It's amazing what kind of havoc the lack of planning can create. I'm trying not to let it spill into what little free time I have carved out for myself, but it did have a hand in only doing Surya A yesterday. Either way it will be over in a month and I've made it through worse.

Wish I were writing more but have been either lacking time or inspiration. It's definitely different with L living here. I find that I would prefer to spend my free time with her vs. all the things I used to do with it before when we were basically just seeing each other on weekends (which includes blogging). A lot of things we've been doing together and we've even started being more active in the evenings instead of my sedintary ass in front of the computer or television every night. It would be nice to work back into writing regularly again... We'll see.

I fought the mind and the mind won.  Too much citta vrtti today.  I started out ok, but I have so many things going on right now I just couldn’t keep the mind clear.  I made it through standing before I went into headstand for a while, hoping I could flush the mind out… mmm…not so much.  Although my practice wasn’t ideal, I’m still noticing some positive changes in my attitude towards it.  There seems to be a patience and a level of thoughtfulness that I haven’t noticed previously.  I’ve been working towards a surrender in my practice that’s a little hard for my ego but when I manage to do it there is a wonderful focus that I rarely get otherwise. I’m also really enjoying my pranayama practice, it’s something I feel like I’ve “put off” until now, but really, I don’t know if I would have been ready for it before now so maybe I just was waiting for the right time.

I seem to be having personal electrical issues, too.  First my electric clippers were shorting out and every time they did the door bell would ring… How’s that for weird?  Then my computer crapped out… for the first time.  Then when I got it back it crapped out again.  Apparently the CPU died, first time the technician had every seen that in however many years.  Then my iPod got sick.  I was able to restore it for our trip to Virginia but Monday morning, after several emails to iPod+HP support, my iPod was pronounced dead.  Oh, and by the way, it’s warranty has expired so you’ll have to buy a new one.  Yes, we realize you’ve only had it for just over a year but you’ll still need to drop another $300 for a new one, we don’t fix them.

Work is nuts, I’m trying to design three shows, engineer two and build a new class for next semester.  I thought once the students left I would have lots of quiet time to work… Nope.  Oh, well.  At least I won’t be bored.

Oh, and we’re looking for a good honeymoon spot.  Preferably somewhere with a spa, some yoga, and where we can get some good R&R.  Oh, and somewhere that won’t get hit by a hurricane as our honeymoon will be in the middle of hurricane season.  (other wise we were planning on Maya Tulum)