Wandering Mind

Some days you just struggle through your practice wondering what you’re doing it for. But you persevere; you give your practice to those who need the energy more than you right now. So as not to cheat them you do every pose, every vinyasa. It’s not the prettiest practice you’ve ever had. It’s definitely not the most graceful but you find strength in the energy you are releasing. You even find you can hold a couple poses a little longer without seemingly needing energy. Then once you make it past uth pluthi and flow through your last vinyasa, being proud of yourself for not skipping it, you lie down in Savasana. Allowing the mind to clear, you almost forget the question of why. Then you stretch the arms up over head, reach the legs out long, then curl up on your right side, supported by the earth. Eventually you make your way up to an easy seat, your eyes are still closed, your breath is soft and even, and your heart is open. You thank your self for coming to your mat. You thank your friends and teachers for sharing in the give and take of energy. You quietly say Namaste under your breath because there’s no one there to hear it but you still say it, to yourself and to those you love. And then you open your eyes and realize why you do it. To see the beauty in all things.

It was a long, hard day and I didn’t want to practice so I knew I needed it. And it turned out pretty good. I really wasn’t sure if I wanted to keep going after Navasana and I thought about skipping a pose or two. Then I decided I could wait until I was really tired and couldn’t share any more energy with anyone, then I could skip. Didn’t skip. I practiced on my back deck and it was about 85 and sunny but there was a great breeze and the windchimes and the ipod sang me through my practice.I wish I had a digital camera. It was a really pretty view when I opened my eyes after my practice. I took some pictures on my 35mm and I’ll post them with a link back to this entry once they’re developed.

Good day on the home front. I got a lot more done on the kitchen floor and should have it finished tomorrow along with the new woodwork. Might even get a coat of paint in there, too. But we’ll see.